Reality vs. Reality

Today I crossed the Canadian border with a dream in my heart, a vision in my mind, and a promise in my hand.

Alas, these are not currencies in this strange land called earth.

I seem to have fallen in love with a God who calls me to impossible things. Today I have been overwhelmed with the impossibilities of the reality I currently call my home. All the while walking confidently in that He knew when He called me here, the needs I am faced with He has already taken care of. I just haven't seen it yet, because I don't need it yet.

I was not able to acquire the visa I needed due to lack of paperwork. I then find out that currently the school is not converting monies because of the exchange rate and therefore tuition is much higher than originally planned for. I am of course also faced with the fact that I have no money to return to the land which I come from. The place my family lives, the place my friends are, the place I call home.

Again, I am reminded:

I have decided to follow Jesus. No turning back, no turning back.

So here I am . In yet another impossible situation that I actually asked my Beloved to put me in. Many ask why I would request to be in a place of impossibility. Because then and only then is His beautiful glory displayed in one wrecked for His Pleasure. Because I am constantly exposed the the reality that lasts forever opposed to the one that currently holds impossibilities. Because those of you who have partnered with me have waited a long time to see God move the way He is about to.

Are you ready for it in your life? By partnering with me, you have opened the crazy God box in your own life. God is about to explode through our nice little stained glass windows of who we thought He was with the reality of who He is. The Beloved One that was so captured by a man's heart, the man never knew death. The Mighty One that used an abused child to run a nation and save His chosen. The Beautiful One that captured the heart of a pagan King by partnering with an orphan from his chosen people. The Deliverer that worked with a handicapped man to lead a nation out of captivity. Enoch, Joseph, Esther, and Moses.

This is the One I search for. Over and over. My heart longs to see the one I read about, the one I pray to, the one I worship, the one I live and breath for.

I am no longer suited for this reality. My heart has been far too exposed to the place I come from. I am ruined, FOREVER RUINED!, by the One I love and will chase Him to the ends of the earth if only to catch a glimpse. And we get to go together, you and me. For one is to sow and one is to reap and yet both get credit for the same harvest. Partners in work and partners in play. Whatever I begin to see and experience, I expect you to begin to see and experience.

In eager anticipation I await your ruin as well.
To be forever ruined by One Who is crazy in love with you.